High

Nothing, absolutely nothing gives a high like success. At the end when it all turns well it finally makes sense. Some roads are difficult and some... well not so, but I never took the beaten path so why now.

Crash !!

Just like I imagined, my brief rendezvous with happiness ended very abruptly. It was like riding a Toyota Prius without the brakes functioning. How else could it end but in a crash. To make matters worse the air bag was not functioning either. Not Toyota's fault maybe, I probably disabled it. Now as I stand on the kerb waiting for help with a bleeding head, number of broken bones and an ache which I can't even pinpoint I wonder if the ride was worth it. I have been somebody who has always believed in taking chances but now I have to draw a line between reckless fun and stupidity. After all riding a car without brakes cannot be fun, it is a sure recipe for disaster. Only a miracle can save me from a crash and the supposedly rational human being I am should know better than to hope that any miracle will happen. Miracles don't happen with me, ever. The road to recovery will be long and painful but hopefully this time around I will learn my lesson. I can't fight destiny and I can't control the universe.

Dose of Happiness

Clichéd though, its probably true that our happiness is in our mind. I am still the same person I was a few weeks back or a few months back but something just clicked recently and I feel happy. It's not something that anybody else contributed to, it was just a switch in my mind which turned on. It feels good and it makes me happy, more like ecstatic. Something which probably happens once in a blue moon.

I shall bask in this happiness for a few days or maybe a week or so and then slowly let go. It only makes sense, after all the only direction you can go when you are at the peak is downhill and that I am not ready for. I keep telling myself that when you hit rock bottom you can only bounce up so I guess that logic holds when I am at the top. But I have to admit it's a good feeling. Right now I need to focus on what I know will make my happiness last a little longer and that is definitely not something which will happen without my contribution nor is it just in my mind. I shall let this dose of happiness inspire me before it finally fades away.